I'm supposed to be sleeping right now - there's no doubt about that, really. I went out from the camp on Saturday afternoon to get a one night out in Kota Kinabalu with my family. Wan and Atuk arrived in KK together with Ayah Ji's family from Labuan by ferry, landed in Menumbok and driven a two hour journey up to KK and arrived also on Saturday afternoon. tomorrow the whole rombongan will move to Papar, in which my camp will be holding an Open Day - a day which every visitor can enter into our camps to the extent of our dormitories, our beds, our lockers and of course, our toilets. and we'll be setting off at around 11am or so. and I can't sleep though it's 2.40am, and I woke up at 5am Saturday morning. do note that in this part of the country, the sun rises around 6, and sets also around 6 in the evening.
well.
last week's been bumpy. I was not in a good mood, and so are most of us. some of us are getting an early leave for the matrikulasi offer, so the situation is, most of my friends there - good friends - are leaving. I, on the other hand, didn't apply for matriks, for some complicated reasons. which leaves me under a certain tense situation, though I'm glad that some of my friends there - namely Fahim, Lan, Firdaus, Naz and Aus - are not leaving. while my bestfriend there - Azrai, together with Saiful, Mus, Hoe, Elfira, Aie, Nazrin, Fifi and many others (approx 40 people) are leaving first thing in the morning today, getting an exemption and a certificate. most of them doesn't really leave for matriks anyway, most of them will consider the option between matriks and UPU (which many of us will know today).
PLKN would be disastrous if you have no friends. and that's it. the reason why people don't want to go back home, cry on the last night and missing PLKN so much is because of friends. so, when these things happen, clearly, it's kind of upsetting and frustrating. not to mention disappointing.
however I'm glad that I still have the chance to go out and meet my parents and my family. and just about 3 weeks ago, I met my friends, slept at my own bed and been in my comfort zone for awhile. even in the hardest times, I still got many reasons to be greatful and thankful - yet sometimes I'm so stubborn to realise it.
if you're from the Peninsula, and are placed in Sabah and Sarawak, chances are you won't be seeing your parents for the whole course period. it's a fact, and it happens to the majority of us. and it's a cruel fact that is bitter to be swallowed. yet I'm updating my blog now. and the last time I went to KLCC was the last two weeks. and I just had my Burger King's Double Cheeseburger. the last time I laughed with my grandparents? just now. and I'm glad to have my UPU checked with my parents by my side. which makes me realise - what more do you want?
home, yes. but not now.
so I conclude the whole thing once again. those who go back - they deserve to go back. people like Azrai, didn't see their parents since the day they departed from KL, that is, 50 days ago. so they deserve it, and that's it. whether they want to go to matriks or not, it's up to them - because it's their right. though a month earlier leave really matters for everybody, then again, everybody gets their own part of luck.
so I'll stay just like the rest of us.
it's the nature of PLKN - we meet, we stay, then we leave. patience, is always number one. for the last seven weeks, everyday needs patience (includes cuti). the programme is not torturing, but sometimes it'll look unnecessary, sometimes boring, at many times useless and most of the time tiring. but then again, happy times will come, you'll enjoy, and some moments become cherishable. but these above won't be happening if friends don't exist - of that, every wira and wirawati is sure of.
well, with four weeks left, let's just finish it and accomplish something, shall we? plus, Insya-Allah my place in the future is secured, and I believe my life after June 9 will be brighter than before March 18. changes will come, and by completing the whole course I hope I'll make my parents proud, and of course myself feeling content.
syukrishairi
day 50 week 8
Kota Kinabalu, Sabah
well.
last week's been bumpy. I was not in a good mood, and so are most of us. some of us are getting an early leave for the matrikulasi offer, so the situation is, most of my friends there - good friends - are leaving. I, on the other hand, didn't apply for matriks, for some complicated reasons. which leaves me under a certain tense situation, though I'm glad that some of my friends there - namely Fahim, Lan, Firdaus, Naz and Aus - are not leaving. while my bestfriend there - Azrai, together with Saiful, Mus, Hoe, Elfira, Aie, Nazrin, Fifi and many others (approx 40 people) are leaving first thing in the morning today, getting an exemption and a certificate. most of them doesn't really leave for matriks anyway, most of them will consider the option between matriks and UPU (which many of us will know today).
PLKN would be disastrous if you have no friends. and that's it. the reason why people don't want to go back home, cry on the last night and missing PLKN so much is because of friends. so, when these things happen, clearly, it's kind of upsetting and frustrating. not to mention disappointing.
however I'm glad that I still have the chance to go out and meet my parents and my family. and just about 3 weeks ago, I met my friends, slept at my own bed and been in my comfort zone for awhile. even in the hardest times, I still got many reasons to be greatful and thankful - yet sometimes I'm so stubborn to realise it.
if you're from the Peninsula, and are placed in Sabah and Sarawak, chances are you won't be seeing your parents for the whole course period. it's a fact, and it happens to the majority of us. and it's a cruel fact that is bitter to be swallowed. yet I'm updating my blog now. and the last time I went to KLCC was the last two weeks. and I just had my Burger King's Double Cheeseburger. the last time I laughed with my grandparents? just now. and I'm glad to have my UPU checked with my parents by my side. which makes me realise - what more do you want?
home, yes. but not now.
so I conclude the whole thing once again. those who go back - they deserve to go back. people like Azrai, didn't see their parents since the day they departed from KL, that is, 50 days ago. so they deserve it, and that's it. whether they want to go to matriks or not, it's up to them - because it's their right. though a month earlier leave really matters for everybody, then again, everybody gets their own part of luck.
so I'll stay just like the rest of us.
it's the nature of PLKN - we meet, we stay, then we leave. patience, is always number one. for the last seven weeks, everyday needs patience (includes cuti). the programme is not torturing, but sometimes it'll look unnecessary, sometimes boring, at many times useless and most of the time tiring. but then again, happy times will come, you'll enjoy, and some moments become cherishable. but these above won't be happening if friends don't exist - of that, every wira and wirawati is sure of.
well, with four weeks left, let's just finish it and accomplish something, shall we? plus, Insya-Allah my place in the future is secured, and I believe my life after June 9 will be brighter than before March 18. changes will come, and by completing the whole course I hope I'll make my parents proud, and of course myself feeling content.
syukrishairi
day 50 week 8
Kota Kinabalu, Sabah
2 comments:
wow. u seem so tensed! sory i didnt get to chat with u last night. ill b hving my insurnce paper today. yes sunday! shucks! hey u, hold on. from the way u wrote, u seem unhappy, despte the compny of ur friends. and for the only reason u wrote too, theyre the reason plkn seems cool, so well hold on to it :) take care!
syukri, i for one, is very, VERY proud of you. so enjoy the rest of it, and make the best of it.
you'll have stories later to tell others. we dont. you get my drift ;)
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