Life Pokes Me

Random insomniac notes.

When you're still wide awake after staying up the whole night, a lot of things can linger around in your head. It's either that or you will immediately fall asleep and miss class.

I often wish that I can have the skill of reading others' minds. Not exactly to directly read, but rather to predict -- quite well, at that. Nowadays I frequently met others who could and have actually 'read' my mind especially those times when I'm scheming or feeling deceitful, but maybe I'm just that predictable.

I also wish that I can find my other half who thinks that being silent and appearing shy in front of others who you don't even know well as sexy. Because I'd rather shut up instead of blabbering stuffs that I don't know. Did you not know that I prefer being alone at home instead of hanging around with people that I don't get along with? You may point out avoidant personality disorder, but I prefer to spell it as rationality.

Plus, people appearing shy and silent isn't necessarily a snob. But whose to blame if you're stuck with high school drama?

I also wish that I've chosen to buy a Mac. Or at least reformat my laptop, or something quite near to reorganising the things in it and giving it some space? Officially and radically, I think Mac is quite the better option. (I'm yet to shift to the 'Mac is the best' bloc).

I also wish that I'm finishing up with my design for final project. Unfortunately, I don't. I wish the mind-readers aforementioned above could make a favor to read my lecturers' mind also but no, they're lagging in doing the project too.

I'm wishing for a chocolate brownie with vanilla ice-cream topped with chocolate syrup served here in my room, after this.

I wish I can meet the people who call me 'Syukri' with the 'ri' with their heart and chill, right now.

I also wish that I'm surrounded with people whose minds are much open. No, saying that 'Hey, yeah, I think so too because I'm open-minded!' wouldn't help. I know my friends who are open-minded and those with minds as narrow as an LRT door blocked by the people outside when those from inside are exiting -- the very exact people whose mind as narrow as yours, that is.

This might be too random, but being an NR doesn't equalise you to be lazy and not performing. This is an open message to all of you who think that us NRs are problematic and inefficient, if you think you're so good then I want all of you to come to class on time.

And yeah, using English correctly in your assignments and even montage doesn't mean that you're copying it from the Internet. Pity yourself if you do that. We're in a world-class university, remember? Even the kids are learning Math and Science in English, why shouldn't you?

Who would copy something from the Internet and then use it in a self-made video montage, anyway?

I also wish that I could've pointed out to a social-climbing bimbo that Guessis not a designer label so there's no point of bragging your new handbag to me because I'm not impressed. Come on, ever heard of Coach and Marc Jacobs before? I also wish that I could get rid of social-climbing bimbos -- in my life, at least.

I wish I'm above average. But I'm thankful, maybe, that I'm not.

Posted in Seri Iskandar. PHOTO A girl by Lake Toba, North Sumatra. December 5, 2008.