saddest bloodiest thing;

I've never ever been so fucking frustated like this before. maybe some of you out there will accept this willingly and naively, but sadly i don't. if the shit was organised freely and it is a fair play, then maybe i'll accept. but what pisses me off largely is, it is not. i don't know why, and how, and what the hell is happening in our country. merely, i feel discriminated, degraded and obviously fucking disappointed, agay. and if a happy-go-lucky carefree boy is turning to a foul mouthed bastard, then the shit that i'm talking abt must be something utterlessly serious.

first thing first, all the kokurikulum thing, is 100% bullshit. do not go participate in co-curricular activities, just get your nearest link to org dalam, and you'll be safe and sound. because that's how things work in malaysia. am i right or i'm just plain wrong?

let us see the freaking thing's objectives,

to:

• Develop a young generation who are patriotic and with love for their country
• Enhance unity among the multi-racial communities in the country
• Instill a spirit of caring and volunteerism among society
• Produce an active, intelligent and confident generation
• Develop positive characteristics among the younger generation through good values

First question. what the hell is the use of the malaysian educational system? what are we doing in school for ten bloody years? to get those filthy straight A's and being ignorant to others? oh, sorry, we don't have to get the bloody straight A's. ah, because we're pampered Malays! riiiiight, so i'm not going to debate on the Article 153 of the Constitution. sorry.

I'm just confused, the millions of ringgits used to provide M-16 for the children, the disastrous blue uniforms, secluded ulu camps and all...should be used to improve the educational system instead. Anyway, if the shit worked, only 85 000 of 450 000 people je will be tolerant towards each others pun. What are the teachers doing? Aren't they supposed to build positive characters? What are our parents doing? What the hell is the whole country doing in the first place anyway?!

I love Malaysia to the fullest. I really do. that's why i write this. i'm so saddened and disappointed. Maybe I'll meet some freaking new friends (wow, meet new friends wei! shit lah, now i can delete my myspace and friendster accounts!) and maybe get a freaking six pacs (killer wei, i can save money instead of wasting time at fitness first).

After 50 years of independence,
1. is our young generation not patriotic?
2. is our young generation still racists at heart?
3. the educational system failed to build young generation who are, say, contributive?
4. is there are a serious lack of positive characters in our young generation's mind?
5. if we succeed to build oh-so-positive-characters in like, 85 000 minds, there'll be 400 000 left out there who are still negative minded?
6. the educational system still fail to produce caring and volunteeristic society?
7. why are there cases of racial fighting in the camps? oh sorry, i thought i heard unity.

You know, my hatred towards this bullshit is so thick. i'm not it's material. i hate it. A miracle would do. i'm fucking annoyed. seriously annoyed. one hell of a big thing, i see this.

but teenagers are craps, right? we don't have the right to speak. maybe some things has its importance and significance, myb i'll find some goddamn benefits in this freaking bullshit. myb some fralala chances will rose up. i don't know, don't get me wrong, it's just the anger. i'll cool down, maybe, but i'll find ways, though the whole thing is kinda unchangable unless you are dead.

if you find this thing sensitive and provocative, be intelligent (Malay: pandai) enough to guide me and not judge me. may the peace of god be upon you.

ending the lines. hope, lost.