June 22, 2008

It's London before the classes start!

AWAY; June 22 -- ???

I'll be backpacking this time. So no more fancy luggages, and I'd be probably giving up fancy hotels to make way for apartments and hostels. The testing ground: London. Bad choice, but still worth a try.

I'm officially travelling alone. Najmi is currently in Lisbon, and will later resume his vacation with his sister in Paris, so he'll not be in London for most of the time except at the end of my journey. Liyana will be with her family, of course, so I guess it wouldn't be nice to disrupt a family's nice vacation.

This time, it's independence, mobility and the gamble of travel. Whether I will succeed or not, well, I will find out after I finish my 7-day (or more) visit to this biggest city in Europe.

It's a great timing though. John Mayer, Sheryl Crow, Eric Clapton and my all-time favourite Jason Mraz will be performing for Hard Rock Calling on June 28 down at Hyde Park. London Biennale Architecture Festival is going on until July 20. Then there's Architecture Week everywhere in London until June ends. Jazz Plus is taking place everywhere, and from June 23 until July 10 it's the City of London Festival. There are more in the list, I expect more of the unexpected from a summer in London.

I'll drop by at Mara House or Malaysia Hall first, to check for accommodations or to at least letting them knowledgeable (?) of my stay. That, after I grabbed my Oyster Card as soon after I landed at Heathrow.

I haven't packed anything yet, and Mama's already nagging, as usual. Surprisingly I don't take it as an irritating thing anymore though. I think I'm beginning to see it as a beautiful thing to happen without fail every time I want to travel. Thanks, Mama!

My seat for the flight returning to KL is still unconfirmed, though. So if I come home late, er, you know where to find me!

I will let you know about my itineraries later. To Ayah and Mama, thanks, I'll take good care of myself, God-willing.

Yes, Dira, your Starbucks mug. Syith, we'll see how much a PS3 game would cost. Haziq, a can of coke and a lighter as usual. Katrina, I'll call you when Mr A-Z sings I'm Yours.

Listening to: Lighthouse Family - High. See TimeOut: London, HardRockCalling, Frommer's: London, Lonely Planet: London. Recommended read! Let's Go: London

June 18, 2008

Not another one!

"On Monday, Selangor PAS Youth submitted a memoradum to the Selangor Mentri Besar’s office to protest against plans to have Ella and Mas Idayu perform at the match on July 6.

State PAS Youth chief Sallehen Mokhyi said the movement felt that performances by the singers were inappropriate as it would be attended by many youngsters."

I'm begging to all of our political leaders regardless of ANY political party to stop beating around the bush, creating and exaggerating RUBBISH issues and start working on much more IMPORTANT issues.

And stop condemning us youngsters! Yes, both you guys BN and Pakatan Rakyat leaders. Or whoever our leaders are nowadays. We the youngsters are not the only ones around with hormones. Bullshit.

Just in case you guys don't have any idea, here's a suggestion: Improvise our public transportation system. By that, I don't mean building another bunch of bus stops and train stations at the very wrong places which will end up receiving zero passengers. Worse, stops and stations with no bus or train stopping by.

I'll be ready to leave my car if the public transportation is doing well enough to take me to places. Which will be one of the solutions to the rising fuel price problem.

If you think I'm complaining too much, well, you're bloody sad because you're too submissive to know your own rights.

And, uh, 'movement'? What 'movement'?

PAS, Don't Fall for UMNO's trap!
A good piece from Farish A. Noor.

June 17, 2008

Hard Rock Calling, calling!

plus Jason Mraz on Saturday! WICKEDDD!!!!!!

p/s: THANK YOU Dira and Ibu! I owe you guys big time!

June 16, 2008

The Muhammad In Us

Part Two: Muhammad; love him or hate him.

PERSONALLY, I PREFER Madinah to Makkah. I love Madinah. Madinah is less congested and is much 'roamable'. In other words, there are more spaces for yourself in Madinah than in Makkah. The air is much breathable, the people nicer, and the roads gentler. Nevertheless, it is Madinah today, Yathrib 1, 400 years ago, and always, it's the city of the Prophet -- Al-Madinatun Nabi.

Islam is underground at first. The mainstream lifestyle of the world in general, and amongst the Arabs in the 5th century was not all good. Muhammad didn't actually expect his movement would have up to two billion followers today in the 21st century. The Messenger of God, it seems, was only interested in only one thing: to deliver the message of God.

Muhammad is an orphan. His father died when he was in his mother's womb. His mother, Amina, died when he was six. His grandfather Abd Muttalib, leader of the powerful Bani Hashim clan of the Quraysh tribe, died when Muhammad was under his custody. Muhammad then, went under the care of the most merciful and kind, yet also the poorest, of his many uncles -- Abu Talib. Muhammad is also illiterate for all of his life.

Muhammad was a shepherd, then a merchant by helping his uncle's business, who then became one of the most trusted guy in Makkah. He got married to a 40 year-old widow by the name Khadija when he's only 25, then prevented a feud from sprouting by solving a problem involving the placing of the Black Stone in his 30's.

At 40, Gabriel came to him while he was alone meditating outside Makkah. So Muhammad began what God wanted him to do. He's all set to clear the errs and set things right once again. The Last Prophet for mankind has arrived. From that very beginning, it seems, Islam has never turned back.

Muhammad, peace be upon him, no longer lives today. Yet his legacy is living, in the hearts of believers and non-believers alike. It's either you hate him, or you love him. Those who love him misses him, longing to meet him, weeped at his grave, lamenting in infatuation over his loss. In prayers everyday, supplications for Muhammad are never to be missed.

Those who hate him ruthlessly labelled Muhammad as a pedophile, anti-Semitic, misogynist, polygamist, barbaric, autocratic while even going to an extent to label him as 'an ominous destroyer and a prophet of murder'. Muhammad is a terrorist, they say, and Islam is a religion of terror. The damage seems unrepairable.

Still, Muslims do what Muhammad did. All the rites we do today are taught by Muhammad himself. The Qur'an didn't state a guideline of how one should pray or how one should perform the hajj. So Muhammad was in the picture to teach everything he could've taught, shaping the lives of the people of his times and of course, shaping ours'.

"Cover your mouth with the back of you hand when you're yawning," he said, "or the devil will enter". "Cut off your nails," he said, "uncut nails are nests of the devil." Well, we all know that yawning with your mouth open so widely and having long nails are not really healthy and appropriate. Muhammad told this, not only as a prophet bus as a father, a husband, an ordinary man. This is just a tiny bit of what he had taught through his behaviours and sayings or hadiths, known collectively as the Sunnah.

He slept with no pillows, just lying his head on a straw bag, made out of dates' tree. He sew his own clothes. He even made a congregational prayer ends earlier once, because he heard a child was crying at the back.

This family guy at the same time are busy administrating a community he favors to call 'ummah', ruling out laws, commanding battles and wars with the hostile Meccan Quraysh, and keeping things in order in a nation called Madinah. Even hundreds of years have passed millions of Muslims are still looking back of this nation of Muhammad's, although still searching and longing for what exactly a Muhammad-run state is, or popularly known today as an Islamic state.

Muhammad, it seems, is a never-ending influence.

*****

It's the second time I'm visiting Muhammad's tomb that day. I stood by a pillar out of the crowd's way, right in front of Umar's grave, watching the crowd swayed past the graves. The mosque's authorities impolitely pushed them to go faster, in order to prevent them from commiting any bid'ah at the graves.

One by one turned their faces towards Muhammad's resting place, their mouths uttering the salam for the Prophet. "As salamu alaika ya Rasulullah," said one, "Peace be upon you, O Messenger of God", sobbing and weeping. Then came another, and another, then another.

It'd be wrong for me to say that it's a crowd of sorrow and disappointment. They maybe are, grieving for such great loss. I'd rather say the tears are tears of mixed feelings of happiness and content. "Finally," some would say, "I'm here".

It was my last day in Madinah. I've managed to get into the Raudah two times for two days, I don't want to miss my last. "The area between my house and my pulpit is one of the gardens of Paradise," the Prophet said, "supplicate here, and it'll be fulfilled". And the area is not that large either. Unsurprisingly, the crowd is large, and everybody wants a piece of the cake.

So there I was, praying for happiness and God-knows-what. I then headed to the Prophet's tomb again to bid farewell. "Please don't make this the last," I said softly, my heart felt warm saying that. So I walked out of the Prophet's Mosque, walked for the last time in the streets of Madinah. It's time to go to Makkah.

Regardless of whatever you think about Muhammad, he brought reform and revolution to the world, like it or not. He's here 'to perfect mankind's traits,' as God states in the Qur'an, and 'to bring mercy to the world.' Surely, what he delivered and taught was perfect enough to be understood. Muhammad was the man. He transcends perfection, 'perfected the religion' for us, leaving behind his two wills: the Qur'an, and the Sunnah.

We stand small before this man who is loved by God so much. Muhammad's message has been passed down from generation to generation throughout the ages. Question is, when it's our turn, could we pass it down?

Listening to Ungu - Shalawat. PHOTO The Prophet's Mosque. The green dome, built during Ottoman administration, spread over Muhammad's tomb, alongside with his Companions Abu Bakr and Umar's tombs.

June 09, 2008

It's Raining in God's Land

Part One: Makkah, as never before.

I STEPPED DOWN from my hotel stairs and joined a huge procession of people thronging the streets, all heading to the same way. Maghrib is approaching. Though the prayer time is half an hour away, shopkeepers and vendors are already closing down their stores as I walk pass them, taking my usual route to the Sacred Mosque -- Masjidil Haram.

It's best to come early.

Though the day is shifting slowly to dusk, the heat isn't really receding. With the summer months gradually approaching, daily temperature is soaring high up to 45°C. In many parts of Saudi Arabia -- particularly in the Hijaz region, home of Al-Haramain, the Two Holy Lands -- it could reach even up to 50°C in July and August, with the air being unkindly dry.

Adding to that, are dust and smoke. Makkah, it seems, is no more serene. Many buildings surrounding the Haraam area were demolished, leaving extremely bare and barren hills to pave way for the mosque's further enlargements and provisions for better accommodations. The hajj business, apparently, is expanding.

The level of the sa'ie area is to be doubled. So is the jamrah area, which is undergoing massive expansion works. Opposite the Mosque's King Fahd's Gate, a building complex is under completion -- Abraj Al-Bait or Towers of the House -- housing an already completed avant-garde four-storey retail and shopping complex downstairs (patronising a Starbucks, a Dabenhams, a Topshop, and even La Senza, among others) and five star hotels above. It'll be the tallest in Saudi Arabia, reaching 557 metres total in height, which is taller than the Petronas Twin Towers.

With the exception of prayer times, noise from the works on-going around the mosque resonates in the air of the valley. The hills which have hold witness to what has happened here thousands and thousands years ago -- holding the answer of who has built the Kaaba and from where the Zamzam well originated from -- are increasingly flatted and levelled. Nevertheless, the site was holy today as it is still holy before. Makkah is, apparently, the world's holiest construction site.

The sky is still clear though it's changing its hues, from the bright, striking azure to soft, twilight shades. Suddenly, the sky is thundering. Unlikely.

People are still proceeding with their walk, entering the mosque, taking in their rows of safs. When it is time, the azan breaks the murmurs in between the mosque's many marble columns -- zikirs, Quran recitations, and light chatting are put to halt. At the end of the azan, it thunders again.

Usually there would be a 15 to 20 minutes gap in between an azan and an iqamah -- a second call to signify that a congregational prayer would immediately commence (iqamah means to stand up) -- but that day, only five minutes later, an iqamah was already called out. The imam is already beginning the prayer. In the middle of the Fatihah the imam's recitation was interrupted, him being stumbled upon hearing yet another thunder. By the end of our Maghrib prayer, it is already raining.

It's raining in Masjidil Haram.

Upstairs, people flock to the vast balconies to take a look. Downstairs, people are flocking to the tawaf area, stairs to the open areas surrounding Kaaba jammed with people -- some already wet -- wanting to catch to rare opportunity of circumambulating the Kaaba with rain pouring over their heads.

It is a sight to behold. People thronged towards the Hijr Ismail area, not letting the opportunity of offering prayers to go away. But that's not the only reason. Rain water is pouring down from Kaaba's roof via the golden spout, onto the Hijr Ismail area, causing an ambitious crowd to hurl over to the small open area that was once a part of Kaaba's inside. Water flowing down from the Kaaba is a very big deal. It's a blessed water, they say, why miss a chance splashing oneself with one?

The Mosque's authorities were fast in preventing this by blocking the Hijr Ismail area, making it totally inaccessible. The Saudis are hardcore fans of the ever-strict, holier-than-thou Wahhabi sect, anyway. Doing something the Prophet didn't do, such as regarding this and that as holy, blessed, sacred et al, i.e stuffs that are not stated by the Qur'an and the Sunnah, is a big no-no.

Strictly fundamental in nature, these guys in their early days razed all tombs and historical sites in Hijaz to ground to prevent pilgrims from performing 'diverted' rites which are classified as heretical.

At one point, they even sacked the Prophet Mosque in Madinah, destroyed the tombs of Prophet, Abu Bakr and Umar and took hold of the Mosque's treasury. All tombs of the family members and companions of the Prophet in the nearby Baqi' cemetery are untraceable and undetectable until today, thanks to these guys.

Ever since the Ottoman (yes, them again) Empire and Caliphate fall, it is the Saudis who are taking control of the hajj business, the leaders of the absolute monarchy designating themselves with the important title 'Custodian of the Two Holy Mosques'. No Muslim would ever challenge a person with the title this vital. At least, not yet.

The rain didn't last long. Wind blew into the mosque, bringing more dust and heat rather comforting breeze. Some debris escaped from the nearby construction sites, finding their way into Masjidil Haram. Floodlights light up the remaining raindrops falling on the souls who wanted more of it, but the rain just stopped soon after.

A rain in Makkah is a blessing. For some it's miraculous, for others it's luck, accompanied by mercy. Rahmat, they claim. Berkat, goes another. All in all, it's a relief for this old city, dubbed Umm al-Qura -- Mother of Cities -- in the Qur'an, albeit the relief being a short one.

This blessed city of ours sure has gone a long way. From the days of Adam and Eve being met up on Mount of Mercy after being separated after the Fall, Abraham leaving Hagar and Ishmael to their own survival, to the days of the beginning of an underground movement lead by Muhammad later known as Islam, Makkah is the city to be.

Tunnels cut the hills and old buildings are teared down to make way for the ultra-new ones. Yet, a blessing's still a blessing, a sanctuary is still a sanctuary, and a promise is still a promise. Pilgrims come and go, and the figures just go up year by year, just like what Abraham prayed for thousands of years ago.

I don't think if I performed even a thousand umrah, yet if I'm not learning anything from Makkah, it'll teach me anything. This would go beyond questions. It's a matter of whether I'm thinking using my God-gifted brain, or whether I'm just blindly following what others are doing. I believe, that rituals without belief are merely a waste of God's gift.

God asks me, and you, to learn. Makkah is not holy for nothing. Escapism for faith-searching, it may be. And my faith, I guess, isn't just limited to some mere rituals. This is Islam we're talking about -- the way of life that comes with simplicity to simplify our lives. A simplicity that leads to completeness. Why are some people making it to appear so complicated?

My last glance at the Kaaba was of a mixed feeling. I've taken this chance, but even though I wanted to be sure, a next visit is still beyond my planning. As for every visit, there's a chance to renew. There's a chance to think.

I guess it'd be meaningless, even if you're trying to be so fitting in tucking a new kopiah of yours, carrying gallons of Zamzam home but the fact is you've learned nothing in Makkah and Madinah. 'Weird' stories and encounters, confessions on being 'insaf' and 'bertaubat' are then prepared to be sold off to crappy magazines like Mastika and Mangga. What are we learning, actually? What are we trying to show?

Maybe the answers are still left behind in the soils of the holy city. The drills are maybe still on-going, the cranes are lifting, and the honks are buzzing in its violent streets. However dreaded the noises would be, there would still be a piece of promise granted for Makkah: an everlasting peace.

One could find it lurking at the alleys of the cosmopolitan souqs and bazaars. Or maybe in the open barren fields guarded by naked hills under the scorching Arabian sun. Maybe in the deepest of tunnels, or the tallest of minarets.

But if you look carefully, in the end, peace is in the heart.

Listening to: Sheryl Crow - Peace be Upon Us PHOTOS 1. Pigeons fly onto the scaffoldings near Masjidil Haram after sunrise. These pigeons are also known as the 'Bird of Fatima', as their black appearance resembles that of the veil of Fatima, daughter of Prophet Muhammad. 2. An Indonesian man writes on a pillar at the peak of Jabal Rahmah -- Mount of Mercy -- at the Plains of Arafat, the point of where Adam and Eve met after their separation after being sent down to earth from Heaven. Some believe if their names are written on this column, they'll enter Heaven, though this act strictly has no basis whatsoever. On Zulhijjah 9 every year pilgrims will gather here in the plains until sunset as a part of the rites of a much bigger ritual, the hajj.

For everything else, there's Flickr! I deeply regret the spots found in some pictures, if it's not my lens' fault, it'd probably be my sensor's. Will edit 'em if I have time.

May 28, 2008

Ready, Steady, Go!

Pssst. The best ikan pari bakar in town is at Jalan Masjid India. Head down there for lunch!

I happened to be around that part of KL yesterday afternoon, just to find a kopiah that suits me best. And how lucky I am to find two kopiahs that are exactly like I've always wanted. The shopping session was unexpectedly smooth (though Ayah and I did struggled through the usual city centre jam and parking space hunting, like what the hell -- it's downtown KL at noon, what do you expect?).

I just want to point out that the area of Jalan Masjid India and Jalan Bunus have that correct, merry ambience that every city should have; just like Cairo with its Khan al-Khalili, Istanbul with its Grand Bazaar, Rome with Via Condotti -- you get it. It has the magic needed to attract thousands of people to come here everyday, no matter how many bigger, sophisticated malls are sprouting around KL. People-watching is unavoidable.

This is true, because before we came down to join all the hustle and bustle, Ayah and I dropped by at Pavilion after picking up our visas at the travel agency. Well, as expected, on weekdays places like Pavilion are half dead, save for the Food Republic downstairs. We rushed to Masjid India after I got what I wanted -- a bag (and donuts).

It's a good thing that we've skipped lunch at Pavilion (where the ikan pari is also good), because lunch down at 'this stall' at Jalan Masjid India has happened to be very, very tempting.

Enough about that. So I'm actually in the middle of my usual last-minute packing now. I guess I won't be posting anything sooner. I'm going to depart for Jeddah this afternoon and from there, I'll be taking another flight to Madinah where I'll be there for three days, before finally making my journey to Makkah. That's the whole trip's itinerary, roughly.

I guess I've settled all my known debts, and I deeply regret if I've skipped anyone. I humbly seek forgiveness for my flaws and wrongdoings, really, especially to my best friends whom I care a lot. Thank you for the wishes, I'll do what I'll be able to do, and may God hear us.

Some craps dragged out of the store to keep you company while I'm away.

are we social notworking?
"Oh, you have a blog?"
Ah, that city - Again!
Sinan - where art thou?
Why don't we give love that one more chance?
When solutions get really subjective.
First a 'mainstream subculture'. What's next?
Demonstrasi Demokrasi
Oh, the Aftermath!
Finding Re-Defined Ways
Faithful Irony and the Umrah I Seek

...I'll just leave it there. So, take care, and see you guys later!

I've made it a point to leave my laptop behind at home, so expect updates to be posted as late as the first week of June. PHOTO the ikan pari lah. Listening to: White Shoes & The Couples Company - Bersandar.

May 25, 2008

Razzmatazz Yang Banyak (saya ditag!)

Saya ditag oleh senior sekolah saya, Jaja! Survey ni kena jawab dalam bahasa Melayu.

7 fakta tentang saya
  1. Sarapan yang menggoda bagi saya adalah dua telur separuh masak, roti telur bawang dan milo ais tabur. Roti telur bawang boleh ditukar dengan roti sardin, kalau saya tiba-tiba takut overdose had telur yang boleh dibaham dalam sehari (iaitu dua).
  2. Tarantula adalah binatang yang membencikan. Ini termasuklah dengan geng-gengnya yang lain, macam black widow, fish spider dan lain-lain yang saya rasa gerun. Labah-labah biasa tu OKla kot. Tapi senang cerita saya memang benci ah labah-labah. Kalau dibagi pilihan labah-labah dengan lipan, dua-dua saya tak pilih. Kesimpulannya, saya benci lipan jugak.
  3. Memandu dengan slow memang comel, tapi saya pantang betul dengan orang-orang yang macam ni drive dekat fast lane, lagi-lagi kalau saya nak cepat. Rasanya saya bawak kereta masih lagi sopan-santun, cuma kadang-kadang tak sabar. Biasalah, orang muda (quote: Atuk)
  4. Saya tak pernah naik bas RapidKL.
  5. Tapi saya sangat cepat ingat jalan dan OK dengan direction. Mungkin sebab saya suka baca peta dengan merayau-rayau dalam Google Earth. Tapi tak tau la kan.
  6. Ikan favourite saya yang terbaru adalah ikan keli. Saya ingat saya alah dekat ikan keli, rupanya tak. Ape lagi! Tapi Shah Alam agak huru-hara sebab tak ada tempat ikan keli yang best (bukan memancing). Perak gak terbaik (kalau ikan keli jelah)
  7. Dalam wallet saya ada lagi banyak resit daripada duit. (Maaf, gadis-gadis)
7 perkara menakutkan saya
  1. Terkantoi buat benda-benda yang pelik. Ini mungkin sebab sifat saya yang pemalu.
  2. Jatuh tergolek di depan crowd yang memang kenal saya. Ini amat dahsyat dan perlu saya takuti. Namun zip terbuka adalah lebih ganas ketakutannya.
  3. Terlibat dalam kemalangan maut.
  4. Camera DSLR saya terhempas ke lantai. Lens kamera saya pula retak, lepas tu boleh pulak ada serpih-serpih kaca yang jatuh. Tak payahlah nak diterangkan betapa angkernya situasi ini kalau betul-betul jadi. (Saya selalu terbayang-bayangkan benda ni betul-betul jadi, lepas tu saya takut sorang-sorang)
  5. Hantu dan kegelapan. Walaupun tak pernah jadi apa-apa kes, sifat saya ni memang dah banyak menyusahkan member-member saya, malah diorang pulak yang kena kacau. Kehkehkeh.. kelakar, kelakar.
  6. Tempat (yang betul-betul) tinggi yang boleh membuat saya berpeluang untuk jatuh. Sifat gayat saya agak selektif.
  7. Golongan anorexic. Diorang ni buat saya rasa saya makin menggemuk.
7 lagu buat masa sekarang
  1. John Mayer - Say (ketagih, lama-lama nanti bosan ah)
  2. The Strokes - You Only Live Once
  3. Jason Mraz - I'm Yours (versi rekod balik 2008)
  4. The Strokes - Someday
  5. Butterfingers - 1000 Tahun (Mahu Hidup)
  6. Sara Bareilles - Love Song
  7. Malaysian Artistes for Unity - Here In My Home (sori kalau banyak yang mainstream. Taste saya agak teruk)
7 perkara yang selalu saya sebut
  1. Asal ni?/Asal ah? (Weh, ko agak jambu.. asal ni?/Dia tu agak jambu, asal ah?)
  2. (ayat)...lah, Gila! (Sebab dia memang jambulah, gila!)
  3. Chup! (Eh, chup! Chup! Bukan dulu dia tak jambu ke? Fuck lah, asal ah?)
  4. Bodohlah .. kot? (Bodohlah, semua orang dah lama tahu yang dia memang jambu kot?)
  5. ... doh. (Tak doh, selama ni dia tak jambu doh, sumpah tak tipu. Betul doh, ye doh)
  6. Ye? -- 'e' ditekan menaik (Ye? Serieees? Entahlah, ye kot. Mana aku nak perasan dia jambu ke tak, gila!)
  7. Habis cane?/So..cane?/Cane ah? (Alamak.. habis cane?/So..cane?/Cane ah?)
7 perkara yang amat bernilai
Tak ikut turutan,
  1. Duit.
  2. Wallet dan handphone.
  3. Kunci kereta, kereta dan Touch'n'Go.
  4. Rumah, family dan member-member.
  5. Kepala otak dan buah fikiran.
  6. Perasaan.
  7. Nyawa.
7 "pertama kali" dalam hidup saya
  1. Pergi ke KL menaiki tren komuter dan LRT dengan member-member. Alah, melepak. Tapi sekarang ni haram nak buat benda ni -- tau-tau semua dah lesap. Seekor kat Pavilion, seekor kat Central Market, seekor kat OU, seekor lagi kat Hartamas. Siot.
  2. Berkayak. Er, bukan pengalaman yang manis, seingat saya.
  3. Menyanyi depan khalayak ramai yang memang sumpah saya tak nak buat lagi dah.
  4. Minum espresso shot macam minum air teh, sirup sikit-sikit. Tak lama lepas tu baru lah saya sedar yang tindakan tu menyerlahkan ketololan saya.
  5. Mengisi minyak. Kami (watak-watak dirahsiakan) dipercayai balik terus ke rumah sebab berbau minyak.
  6. Tercicir Touch'n'Go ke atas lorong plaza tol masa ramai orang. Alangkah cuaknya.
  7. Terjatuhkan motor-motor delivery McD Seksyen 9 masa nak reverse keluar parking masa buka puasa tahun lepas. Ini satu-satunya collision yang saya pernah kena. Saya dilaporkan telah buat-buat tak malu.
7 orang bertuah (JAWAB TAG NI BALIK!)
Dengan rawaknya,
  1. Eireen.
  2. Rashaad.
  3. Joyce.
  4. Liyana Aziz.
  5. Meuy
  6. AB
  7. Chakra
Biskut tu saya dan Jawa (bukan pulau atau mee) tak sengaja jumpa masa melahap Chipsmore. Oleh sebab ia biskut yang comel, maka ia selamat dari dimakan. Tak bagi nama lagi!

p/s: Selamat menyambut musim 'menuai' kepada semua wedding photographer kat seluruh negara. Musim duit masuk beb.

Tengah dengar: Sara Bareilles - Bottle It Up

May 24, 2008

Recalling Sabah (as Malaysia watches)

About one year ago, I was still in Sabah under the National Service programme. No, don't close your tab yet. This post won't be about the National Service in which I'm seriously done. Yes and true, the programme itself was an unforgettable experience, over many unfathomable reasons. Having the chance to live in Sabah, surely it would be impossible for me not to meddle with the lifestyle of the simplistic Sabahans. Things, unsurprisingly, wouldn't be as simple as you and I could've imagined.

The Land Below the Wind has her own way of showing uncalled expectations.

Kota Kinabalu used to be your idea city. Not anymore. Disappointingly, today, with reasons unknown (and nobody to be blamed for), it's losing its beauty in its own way. My first impression of it was a dark one, acquainted the darkness of late night alongside my feelings of despair and loneliness of having to survive in an extremely alien place all by myself -- for an estimated time of three months. I was stranded at the airport, calling people with my Celcom number and sounded like a desperate cow.

Only a month later when things got much better, my family came to pay me a visit and I've got the chance to see the actual Kota Kinabalu, or Singgah Mata, or Api-Api, or Jesselton. Or simply, KK.

Those were the hard times for me. Ever since then, as far as I can recall, I've got the chance to embrace the city for about two or three times before I return to the Peninsula. Sadly every visit never failed to give me the same impression about KK's unfortunate loss.

Water settlements, or kampung air, filled the shores of the riverbanks and seasides, clustered and scattered, resembling squatter settlements. These kampungs, while looking pleasantly calm and decent during the day, is also notorious for its dark activities as night falls. Failure of proper garbage and sewage systems caused severe pollution to the waters underneath the stilt houses, which lead to other problems such as water quality and health concerns. Could things get any worse?

The opposite Pulau Gaya -- once the British North Borneo post before it was attacked by Mat Salleh and its followers -- is home to hundreds of Filipino and Indonesian immigrants, whose status of whether they're legal or otherwise is unconfirmed.

The once 'Crafts Market' near the waterfront has become the 'Filipino Market', flooded with immigrants indistinguishable from the locals. One can argue of the souvenirs' originality, is it Sabahan, or is it Filipino? And if you're not careful enough, you would be tricked by paying soaring prices for a fake pearl bracelet.

These go side by side with high unemployment rate and rising crime levels in many parts of the city. I guess no locals would've suggested a night stroll by the waterfront. They would suggest you to stay inside of your hotel instead.

There are also some rumors saying that some of these immigrants have even obtained the permanent resident status, thus being nationals of Malaysia. These immigrants sometimes get better education and job opportunities compared to the locals, and suspiciously, are known to be potential 'loyal voters'. Matters regarding this have been a hotly-debated topic, reaching even off the shores of Borneo.

Gone were the days where KK is one of the most pleasant settlements in Borneo.

During my course as a PLKN trainee, I've been given the chance to witness the celebration of Tadau Kaamatan -- the Harvest Festival (see here) -- in a very remote village off Bongawan, a sleepy-hollow town situated in the middle of the road connecting the towns of Papar and Beaufort. I guess it was is one of the most beneficial event in the Nation-Building and Community Service module, no less. It was my first time. I don't know whether it'll be the last.

In this case, we were hosted by those of the ethnic Kadazan-Dusun, the indigenous ethnic which make up the largest community in Sabah. Their languange, however, is identified by UNESCO as one of the most endangered languages in the world. So far nothing has been done to cope with this fact.

The festival which is connected to rice planting and harvesting took place in the middle of a remote oil palm plantation. I remember it was very hot and humid, as if telling that I haven't got enough sunburn, that I need more of it. The bus struggled through the unpaved, dusty road that lead to the remote settlement while things just got bumpier as I strained myself to listen to the music through my cikai (as to avoid theft) MP3 player.

I barely remember where I've put that MP3 player now. However it helped me in avoiding some of the worst music taste dilemma I've ever faced in the three months of my life, and for that I'm thankful.

The place was really horrible. I'm starting to wonder about the possibility of any high-ranking politician from KL would've come there. I remember my estimation was zero percent. I even doubt that the local politician would've come down there if there's no events as such.

But the locals went on with the events -- their much upheld tradition -- without paying much concern to the potholes and puddles, the muddy ground of the venue and the community hall that's poor in ventilation and looked like it would collapse anytime soon. These people were seem to be able to find perfection in imperfection. They took their disadvantages to their advantages. Or so it seems.

Every Sabahan I've met has this talent of being content and thankful with what they've already had in their lives. They won't question much even though they know what is going on. They know that they're not living up to the supposed standards. They know that their brothers and sisters in the Peninsula, even in Sarawak, fared much better than them. But they seem to be always thankful. I'm not sure which type of comfort zone that they've been placed into, because I guess I can't really identify it.

Believe it or not, we're so divided. How could a kid living in the lofts of Damansara identify himself with that chap living in his family's little hut in Kota Belud? Funnily, both are Malaysians. Sometimes, from what I've observed, Malaysian nationalism and patriotism are instilled so forcefully into the hearts of many Sabahans, the fake, rotting side of it are beginning to show.

Journey from KK to Tawau is still taking many motorists ten hours. Is this because of "kami miskin, kami tiada highway macam di Semenanjung," or because of any other explainable reasons? The once beautiful KK is dying out into an urban suicide. Kuching, from what I can recall from my visit in 2001, holds much beauty and splendour if compared with KK, and holds the recognition any inaugurated city deserves.

Maybe I will never be able to understand the heart of Sabahans. But whoever they are, at the surface they are of the cool type, with their open smiles touching up their real-life disparities.

Maybe one day Sabahans will move on, standing side by side with other Malaysians. And the mighty Mount Kinabalu and all her charms will be the eternal witness, whenever that'll happen.

Kadazan-Dusun, Murut, Bajau, Bisaya, Rungus, Brunei, Malay, Chinese, who cares? We're all Malaysians (sic). This is what Sabahans were convinced to believe fourty-three years ago when they joined the newly-formed Federation on September 16, 1963. Can we believe the same thing today?

"Boleh bah, kalau kau."

Listening to: Butterfingers - 1000 Tahun PHOTO banner welcoming guests to the Harvest Festival. Captured May 18, 2007. I was in Sabah from March until May 2007, and was placed in Kem Wawasan, Kg. Ovai, Papar for my PLKN/National Service training. And oh, what's new in Sabah?